A cry for attention...
Mon Jun 07, 2004 10:55 am
Many of you have been reading my LJ recently, right? And you all know about my depression, right?
Well, I have to tell you guys something.
It's not that I'm not actually depressed. I'm just as depressed as I say. I don't lie about how depressed I am.
No, I'm just as depressed as I say I am. But the thing is, I talk about it so much that I imply a more intense level. I've been feeling jealous lately, not of specific people really, but more humankind in general. Some people seem more depressed than me and they get lots of attention from my friends. I want attention too. Pity IRL is just embarrassing. Pity here...well, it's perfect. I just need that pity so much that I make implications that aren't quite true. I do feel depressed, and that's why I blow it up. So I can be comforted by you guys.
There. That's over with. *hides*
Well, I have to tell you guys something.
It's not that I'm not actually depressed. I'm just as depressed as I say. I don't lie about how depressed I am.
No, I'm just as depressed as I say I am. But the thing is, I talk about it so much that I imply a more intense level. I've been feeling jealous lately, not of specific people really, but more humankind in general. Some people seem more depressed than me and they get lots of attention from my friends. I want attention too. Pity IRL is just embarrassing. Pity here...well, it's perfect. I just need that pity so much that I make implications that aren't quite true. I do feel depressed, and that's why I blow it up. So I can be comforted by you guys.
There. That's over with. *hides*
Mon Jun 07, 2004 11:20 am
Awww... everyone needs their share of attention, Tyma. And everyone goes through their share of depression. You did the right thing by coming and just plain acting for attention. It's those people that stay cooped within themselves that end up commiting suicide and seriously hurting themselves. If no one else, I'll pay attention to you, Tyma. Pm me if you ever want to talk... or just be paid attention to.
I do hope that helps...
I do hope that helps...
Mon Jun 07, 2004 2:08 pm
**hugs**
I love you, you know that right? And I worry about you sometimes, but I feel a bit better now, knowing I don't have to worry so hard.
Don't feel bad, sometimes it's important to cry out for attention. Dawn's right. If the attention recieved keeps you from becoming more deeply depressed, then that's a good thing.
I've found.. that it's difficult for one to assess one's own feelings. Especially with regards to depression, which is accompanied by feelings of worthlessness. In my own experience, I would become deeply depressed, and then hate myself for it, because I would feel like I was being a big baby, telling myself how much worse other people had it, and that my problems didn't matter, because I didn't matter. It left me confused as to just how depressed I was.
Depression is depression. Even when it's mild, it's still bad.
Don't forget that you're loved.
I love you, you know that right? And I worry about you sometimes, but I feel a bit better now, knowing I don't have to worry so hard.
Don't feel bad, sometimes it's important to cry out for attention. Dawn's right. If the attention recieved keeps you from becoming more deeply depressed, then that's a good thing.
I've found.. that it's difficult for one to assess one's own feelings. Especially with regards to depression, which is accompanied by feelings of worthlessness. In my own experience, I would become deeply depressed, and then hate myself for it, because I would feel like I was being a big baby, telling myself how much worse other people had it, and that my problems didn't matter, because I didn't matter. It left me confused as to just how depressed I was.
Depression is depression. Even when it's mild, it's still bad.
Don't forget that you're loved.
Mon Jun 07, 2004 3:15 pm
You don't need to be depressed to get attention. Being jealous because other people who are depressed are getting more attention than you isn't part of your depression, that's just plain old jealousy.
You need to find positive ways of getting attention from your friends or it might become a very bad habit, one that people often get very sick of.
You need to find positive ways of getting attention from your friends or it might become a very bad habit, one that people often get very sick of.
Mon Jun 07, 2004 4:00 pm
Its alright,Tyma. 
We're only humans,none of us are perfect. Its okay to want to be noticed.
Dawns right (As usual
) people who keep it all inside end up blowing. I know this from personal experience. And as Istanbullfrog said,look for attention in possitive ways,such as being happy,cheerful and trying your best to have fun. Depression is hard to deal with,I know, so dont we jealous of those who are more depressed than you,because if you really were in their place,I dont think you would like it.
We're only humans,none of us are perfect. Its okay to want to be noticed.
Dawns right (As usual
) people who keep it all inside end up blowing. I know this from personal experience. And as Istanbullfrog said,look for attention in possitive ways,such as being happy,cheerful and trying your best to have fun. Depression is hard to deal with,I know, so dont we jealous of those who are more depressed than you,because if you really were in their place,I dont think you would like it.
Mon Jun 07, 2004 8:10 pm
It's okay, Tyma. Depression often amplifies situations... I'm really sorry that I haven't been around to help you more. I hate seeing others go through the path I've been... I'm sorry.
Tue Jun 08, 2004 12:13 am
PPT is not perfect and pity is more often than not a thing a person does not want. Most people give pity with contempt - some with sympathy.
Everyone wants attention, to be loved and cared for. Facts are, most people are just very good at hiding their feelings. We can't all cry out or who would be there to comfort you? When you are down, we'll be here for you, but when we're down, we need people as well.
I wanted pity a lot before. I still do sometimes. But now, what I really want is admiration and people to respect me and love me. I don't want people to care about me because they feel sorry for me. Once the problem goes away, maybe they won't like me anymore. I want people to care about me simply because they want to and because I'm a likable person.
I don't give pity out a lot partly because I'm touchy with it myself. I have bad experiences with pity and I can't stand for it much anymore. But I am glad that you know why you blow things up and that you are brave enough to come out and admit it. I'm proud you have that bravery.
Everyone wants attention, to be loved and cared for. Facts are, most people are just very good at hiding their feelings. We can't all cry out or who would be there to comfort you? When you are down, we'll be here for you, but when we're down, we need people as well.
I wanted pity a lot before. I still do sometimes. But now, what I really want is admiration and people to respect me and love me. I don't want people to care about me because they feel sorry for me. Once the problem goes away, maybe they won't like me anymore. I want people to care about me simply because they want to and because I'm a likable person.
I don't give pity out a lot partly because I'm touchy with it myself. I have bad experiences with pity and I can't stand for it much anymore. But I am glad that you know why you blow things up and that you are brave enough to come out and admit it. I'm proud you have that bravery.
Tue Jun 08, 2004 1:26 am
Tyma, in situations like this, it is perfectly human to desire attention. However, pity isn't exactly an emotion you want to inspire in people. A "desire to help" is something to aim for. If you feel that you need to talk to someone, there are plenty of people here who would be honored to help.
Many people who are feeling lonely or unwanted use pity to get the attention they want. Pity is not hard to get. If you truly desire to be important in other people's lives, do whatever you do best to earn their respect. Instead of surrounding yourself with the negative emotions that you're using to draw people to you temporarily, work hard to develop a positive aura that will attract people to you permanently.
It was very brave of you to face possible criticism and be honest and open like this. Instead of channelling that bravery in a negative way, use it to your advantage. Don't sell yourself short, Tyma. I sincerely hope that you take this message to heart. It is more important to like yourself than to have other people like you.
I can tell you where to start, but the rest of this is a journey you'll have to make alone. The most important opinion that you should consider is your own, which is quite convenient, seeing as how you have control over it. Watch what you say to yourself. Instead of constantly telling yourself what you did wrong, tell yourself what you did right and what you could improve. When you talk to yourself, your words hold sway over your subconscious. If you constantly tell yourself, "I'm stupid, I can't do it", you will come to believe that and become incapable of doing whatever it is you say you can't do. You have more power over yourself than you know. Start there, and everything else will come in time.
Best of luck, Tyma. I, also, am slowly but surely recovering from depression. It takes time, but it works.
Many people who are feeling lonely or unwanted use pity to get the attention they want. Pity is not hard to get. If you truly desire to be important in other people's lives, do whatever you do best to earn their respect. Instead of surrounding yourself with the negative emotions that you're using to draw people to you temporarily, work hard to develop a positive aura that will attract people to you permanently.
It was very brave of you to face possible criticism and be honest and open like this. Instead of channelling that bravery in a negative way, use it to your advantage. Don't sell yourself short, Tyma. I sincerely hope that you take this message to heart. It is more important to like yourself than to have other people like you.
I can tell you where to start, but the rest of this is a journey you'll have to make alone. The most important opinion that you should consider is your own, which is quite convenient, seeing as how you have control over it. Watch what you say to yourself. Instead of constantly telling yourself what you did wrong, tell yourself what you did right and what you could improve. When you talk to yourself, your words hold sway over your subconscious. If you constantly tell yourself, "I'm stupid, I can't do it", you will come to believe that and become incapable of doing whatever it is you say you can't do. You have more power over yourself than you know. Start there, and everything else will come in time.
Best of luck, Tyma. I, also, am slowly but surely recovering from depression. It takes time, but it works.
Tue Jun 08, 2004 3:53 am
Hey, I sort of know how you feel. Everyone else seems to be getting loads of attention IRL, and all you want is someone to compliment you or give you a cuddle.
Thoughts like that come into my head when I'm alone.
Try and spend as much time as poss with some people that you might want to be friends with, or spend more time with your exsisting friends.
Whatever happens, just remember us. We all respect you, don't ever forget that. Send me a PM if you want to talk about it.
Thoughts like that come into my head when I'm alone.
Try and spend as much time as poss with some people that you might want to be friends with, or spend more time with your exsisting friends.
Whatever happens, just remember us. We all respect you, don't ever forget that. Send me a PM if you want to talk about it.
Wed Jun 09, 2004 5:28 am
Look don't worry about it bab. Depression is hard to get over, I know. Being depressed is feeling low self esteem, little self worth and general conflicts you have with yourself. Attention helps you pick yourself back up and makes you realise that you aren't such a worthless person after all. Everyone needs a bit of attention!
It seems to me that a lot of people who belong to this online community are depressed, including myself, and we all help each other out when depression gets too much. Helping other people helps myself so when I hear of others on this forum who are going through similar problems to myself, I want to help them out.
I respect you more now you've said all this and in my opinion, you deserve attention. We're all here for you darlin. All my love and I'll be thinking of you.
It seems to me that a lot of people who belong to this online community are depressed, including myself, and we all help each other out when depression gets too much. Helping other people helps myself so when I hear of others on this forum who are going through similar problems to myself, I want to help them out.
I respect you more now you've said all this and in my opinion, you deserve attention. We're all here for you darlin. All my love and I'll be thinking of you.
Wed Jun 09, 2004 9:34 pm
Tyma, you'll get over the bulk of it soon, I've been depressed but I eventually move on each time.
Wed Jun 09, 2004 10:49 pm
I've never been what I would imagine real depression to be. Sure, I've moped about a bit sometimes and been a bit upset and even angry, but never sit and stare at the paint drying depressed.
At least you're honest and up front about your cry for attention. Good going for being selfish. Everyone needs to be like that from time to time.
I'm listening, anyway. You go on and have a good moan if you feel like it.
At least you're honest and up front about your cry for attention. Good going for being selfish. Everyone needs to be like that from time to time.
I'm listening, anyway. You go on and have a good moan if you feel like it.
Tue Jun 15, 2004 4:06 pm
*pats* I kind of know how you feel, really. Everyday I feel invisible towards everyone, even my best friends. It's been like that for me for a really long time, so I know how you feel towards wanting attention. I don't deny I never wanted attention, but all I have to say is be brave, appreciate what you have before you. I'm sure many people are there for you whenever you need them, maybe they're too occupied or something. Whatever it takes, courage is needed. You don't know what is going to happen if you don't try.
I think it's really brave of you to admit that; I never did and that's perhaps something I should learn, but will never succeed (I don't tell many people about myself). I have to agree that RL is cruel sometimes, but treat it as an obstacle you need to go through to get to the next stage. Talk to someone about everything, you will feel a lot better to let it all out. Remember people are there for you. ;]
I think it's really brave of you to admit that; I never did and that's perhaps something I should learn, but will never succeed (I don't tell many people about myself). I have to agree that RL is cruel sometimes, but treat it as an obstacle you need to go through to get to the next stage. Talk to someone about everything, you will feel a lot better to let it all out. Remember people are there for you. ;]
Sun Jun 27, 2004 4:41 pm
If you really want attention, try and do something really stupid. That's what I would do. But, sitting around and mooping about it, isn't gonna get you no where. I should know, the same thing has happened to me. But, hope ya feel better.