Hullo all.
Well I'm in somewhat of a prediciment...about cross country.
(For those of you who don't know, cross country [also known as cc] is long distance running. Anyway.)
Last year I was on the school cc team. I liked cc because it was a way for me to get excersise that I wouldn't get otherwise because of a lack of self motivation...but when I was forced to run every day, I did. I got into wonderful shape, I slimmed down...it was all great.
But it was really tough. I found myself having almost no time to myself. I would go to school, go to cc, eat dinner, do my homework, and collaspe in a deep sleep, just to get up and do it again. I was working myself into the ground, with maybe getting a half hour to myself, on a good night.
On top of that, I had gotten bronchitus...which constricts your windpipes so you can't get a deep breath. We didn't go to the doctor, as we all thought it was just a bad cold...and didn't notice that I couldn't breathe very well. I thought that all my work wasn't helping me get better - I was improving and then it started to go back downhill again. So I quit towards the end of the season. I then found out I had bronchitus...and...well, it was too late then. I just hated cc after that whole ordeal, and swore I wouldn't do it again.
Well...here I am now, cc starting in a few weeks for the next school year. Part of me wants to do it - I want to get back into shape, and I want that powerful feeling I had. I'm getting a tad on the pudgy side again, and when I did cc, it went away. It gave me huge amounts of self confidence. But I'm still scared that I will hate it again, and drive myself into the ground. Part of me says that it won't be like that. Last winter I juggled many things, and for weeks, I ended up showing up at home around nine, jumping from activity to activity all day...school, to musical practice, to work, over to forensics, and back over to pep band...all in one night. So I'm thinking - hell, if I can do that...why can't I just do one thing?
Some advice - what do you think I should do? *rips out hair*
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