I only read a tiny little bit of your post to know that what you were going through was Sleep Paralysis. I've not had it for about half a year now but I used to get it terrible. At one point it would affect me nearly every night and sometimes would hit me four or five times in one night. The first time it happened I hallucinated. It went white all around me and zoomed onto a funeral. My name was on the gravestone and everyone was crying. I also saw an obituary in a newspaper. My first thought? That I had predicted my own death. But I'm still here
The most worrying one however, was when I stopped breathing. Of course, I hadn't stopped breathing at all, but it felt like I had. I was gasping for air and making a lot of noise, gasping sounds and everything. But the weird thing was that my own sounds sounded a mile away!
It sounds like something out of a horror movie or book but it's just sleep. Your mind and body is a completely different thing when you sleep and of course, we won't notice this, unless of course, you wake up suddenly just as you're about to go into a deep sleep. It may not be true but it's the simplist and most normal answer I can come up with: that sleep paralysis is where you catch yourself falling asleep, thus, you get to experience what your mind and body is like when you're meant to be asleep. There are other explanations as to what it occurs on the internet but I don't think anybody really knows for sure.
Anyway, let me tell you one thing. It's completely harmless. When I get an 'episode' of Sleep Paralysis, I just try and relax and let it pass. As long as you know that it's harmless you'll be alright. It's really scary at first but I'm so used to it now and, if you get them as much as me, you'll get used to them too. Don't worry alright?
Oh, and if you ever want to talk to someone about it then just PM me.
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