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I feel like my life is falling apart.
It seems like my friends only want to be friends with me if I act or look a certain way, and they talk about me behind my back. One of my very close friends is mad at me for someting I didn't know anything about. And my family is defininetly not making me feel any better about this.

My sister will go out of her way to get me into trouble with my parents, especially my father. I really don't understand why she hates me so much. And my dad makes me feels like dirt. It's like he was put on Earth to make me feel miserable. My brother is okay, but he'd rather comfort my sister if we were fighting. My mom is a dear, and I love her very much, but she doesn't understand how I feel.

And I cry everyday, whether there is a reason for it or not. Sometimes I just burst into tears if I drop something. I've been miserable for the past month, and I don't know why. Sometimes I even think about wanting to kill myself, and I know this isn't the worst thing that can happen to anyone.

And since I always have this "mask" on, I always seem like I'm happy and nothing is bothering me. I just keep it bottled up because I don't even know if anyone cares.

i just went through this. I was having a tough mental breakdown after several horrible events pilled up. I was pushing people I love aside and crying alot...sometimes for no reason.

I talked to my doctor and last thursday I was placed on an antidepressent and this fall I start goin to a shrink. I feel like a nut, but I know in the long run it will help.

Sometimes life spins out of control and you cant help it. The best thing to do is hope and find things you love and hold on to them. I also recomend a journal. Venting your emotions to a journal is a good release and keeps them from being bottled up.

I went through somthing like this. I know how infuriating it is to not have anyone to talk to, I can't stand it and somtimes I just sit in the shower and wish I could tell people my problems. Marching Duck suggested a Journal, its a good idea.
Just one thing, try to keep off anti depressents, if only because if you get through this without them, later experiences won't be as tough to cope with.

If you ask me you need to go see a doctor. I admit anti depressants can be bad,but many people have depression..I do. I know how it feels. And talk to your family. Tell them how much it hurts..and your friends? They arent friends at all. I say you end it with them.

Good luck with this,and God bless!

(PS: Dont kill yourself.)

Oh, tears are welling up just reading your post. I may be kind of old but I can still remember feeling just that same way when I was your age. Like I was the only person on earth who was all alone. Lots of people go through what you are going through. Eventually, you will get on the other side.

You should definitely keep a journal--just write out how you feel, regardless of how the punctuation and spelling looks when you are done. Sometimes that helps you to see what the real problem is. And try to talk about it to someone you trust--just to vent, you know? A teacher, an aunt, the social worker at school. I was lucky--I had a wonderful sister-in-law that I could say anything to.


And, being the mom that I am, I have to say: You could try talking to your mom. You might be surprised at how much she does understand. After all, she was your age once. My daughter usually tells me things right before she goes to sleep--she will keep it bottled up and then, when I say goodnight, she lets loose with all of the nasty stuff that has happened to her that day. And, I can relate. I was an eleven year old girl once too.

But, if none of that helps, you should see a medical professional--not because you are crazy or anything, but because your life seems out of control right now. I had a similar thing happen to me after my dad died--I broke up with my boyfriend of 7 years, my brother and I were no longer speaking, and my best friend decided to no longer be my best friend. I felt so alone and helpless. I went to see a professional--a licensed social worker. And, just talking to her every week for about 2 months helped me sort everything out and regain my self-esteem.

Hope I could be of some help. And, hey, if you ever, ever need to talk to anyone, please PM me.